♥ .A little magic. A little fate.
i am so tired of what's going on now.
so suffocated i wish time could stop for me to breathe.
people come and go i no longer know who i can talk to.
i just need to let out everything, cryscreamwhinescold.
but it's so hard.
so hard to find someone who will listen with a true heart.
because people either have no choice but to listen to me, or just so they can add it in their gossip list.
it feels so terrible and pathethic to know you have to bottle up everything because you can trust noone no more.
and i have to fake a smile time and again, put up a strong front time and again.
because of one wrong decision.
it made everything so awkward and superficial among friends.
i feel so sick of all these shit in the recent months i need someone to fall back on.
but the past made it difficult to step out of my comfort zone.
excuses. i know.
or maybe i jus wanna run away and be alone.
because im afraid of getting hurt.
when will i stop pinching my nose to sleep?
